11 April 2026

After a long day, I decided to sit down and write this, not because I enjoy it. I have a few ideas in my notes but not for this post. I've thought about this topic and I want to be more aware of it, like running too, but we'll get to that later.

Wait no, I actually decided to start running again this afternoon, because I've gained weight over the last few months, thinking that if I decide to write about being aware of running might be an excuse for me to start running so I can write about it.

Some nights I decide to read, not all nights. Thoughts going on in my mind, like it's a long day I'm too tired to pay attention to words, decide on something effortless so I can sleep easier. Maybe that's the same whenever I want to get back into being fit again.

Rituals, every morning either oatmeal with banana, or a can of energy drink, then I'll be on my way to the gym. The last time this happened was 2 years ago, and I'm still looking for my next ritual because I'm cutting out energy drink and oatmeal, there's too much sugar (and synthethic ones) in them, it's bad for me.

Before I moved into this new place, there was a really nice gym that I visit a few times a week, and it became lesser and lesser when I got a full time job. As above, every night I feel drained, so I decided to go or something with less effort.

Morning I need to get up to work, earlier morning then. We woke up one morning at 6am, arrived at gym at 6:30am, it's still closed, went back home feeling bumped out. Didn't stop me from deciding to try again, but it took a few months.

A few months later, we went for a free trial at a gym near her workplace, because I fetch her to work every morning, and I don't need to reach work that early. First day it felt great, it has been so long since I did a back workout, it felt amazing.

Second day we need to reach work early, third day went other places, forth I don't remember. The person who dealt with us for membership asked me why I didn't register, bad commute, I said.

The next decidsion didn't come too much later, a pull up bar from Decalthlon, not sure where I got this idea, during a meditation perhaps. Took me awhile to find one and it was amazing, I did that for two weeks and I can't wait to do more, but I'm still gaining weight, it's not enough.

One night after a movie, we noticed the road was empty because it's after the peak heavy traffic hour. My mind decided that we should watch more movies, her mind decided that we should go workout at night, my mind decided that's a better idea, that was 2 weeks ago.

Next week, what will I be deciding?